What you are about to read is based on my real-life events. I wanted to share this because many people have asked about my journey, and I feel that it is important to put this out here. This is my truth, my past, and the path that has led me to the person and place I am today. It was and is an emotional post for me to write, so you were warned. :)
In the end of 2011, I was sitting in a corner of my room, feeling anxious, upset and depressed. What was I doing with my life, and where was I heading? Questions and doubt was pouring through my head. Literally, I felt as if I was heading for the Niagara Falls.
What happened to the assurance that was hammered into my mind when I was a child? The belief that all you needed to do was to study hard, get straight As at school, and your future was set. Your future would be filled with happiness, success, and you would have everything you ever wanted. That was life in a nutshell, at least that was what I was taught growing up.
Life in a nutshell sounded very easy to me – until I studied hard, got straight As, ranked top 2% in my tertiary entrance exam, and was enrolled in a highly reputable and competitive course, studying to be a doctor at university.
It made sense to my parents, my friends, the society – to be a high achiever meant you would enrol in a course with a high requirement (in my case veterinary medicine and surgery), graduate in 6 years, be a doctor. But yet I felt trapped by dogma.
After 2 years, I realized I wasn’t following my bliss, my values and beliefs, my purpose, and my heart. I kept telling myself that I would ‘learn to live with it’, but as time dragged on, I only felt that I was going nowhere but spiralling downwards. At that time I realized my passion and joy was in nutrition, health, spirituality and wellbeing – and so I took a bold move to follow my intuition. I dropped out of my course and enrolled in nutrition the next semester.
I couldn’t be happier at this point in time. Don’t get me wrong – I will always be grateful for the dark and difficult times, because it has shaped and taught me so much. Today, I’ve found so many like-minded, amazing people in my life that I am eternally grateful for. Through BSchool (which I have to thank my intuition for guiding me to), I have found a source of inspiration from people who live their dreams, and work towards their dreams every single moment.
Life right now is one of ease and flow, where excitement and joy is something I experience every moment. Ultimately, I have come to learn that you have to listen to your heart, because somehow it already knows where you need to go. I have found my purpose and joy in inspiring others to live their authentic truth, to be a dreamer, to live happy, healthy, abundant lives.
For what it’s worth: it’s never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
-F. Scott Fitzgerald
I hope you find strength in my story, and I hope you know that you deserve happiness, health, peace and wellbeing. It is your birthright. You deserve to live a life full of bliss and purpose. If you find that you’re heading towards a place you don’t want to end up at, I hope that you find the courage to re-route and start again. It’s never too late, all that matters is that you have taken a step towards the right direction, no matter how small the step may be. The beauty is that you don’t need anything to take that step – everything you need is already within you.
To your authentic truth,
Jia Ni x